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talk,.,,got what i mean?.,.,ahm hope,.,.
Well.,.i woke up early this morning despite that i slep at 3 a.m..,. i cant sleep,.,i dont why.,.,i mean im infront of the computer surfing the web and my eyes are getting droopy.,.,heavy that is,.,but the moment i get in my bed,.,.i cant sleep.,.in fact i lied in my bed for 20 more minutes before sleeping,,.,.
ok so let us continue the story.,.,
i woke up early.,.,got out of the bed as soon as i woke up and went straight into our sala(?) and sat in one of the couch.,,., my sister's already awake.,.lying in the sofa.,.,as soon as she saw me she stood up and started preparing our breakfast.,.well.,,she finished it after a few minutes.,.fast isnt it,..?ahm after that she went inside our room to wake up her friends (my sister's friends did sleep in our ouse.,.its like a slumber party,.,.except that it is a birthday party.,.,)well.,.,she stayed inside the room for a long time.,.nerly 30 minutes.,.wonder what heppened.,.,
then they came out.,.one by one.,funny isnt it?.,.haha!!!
then they watched TV first for a few minuteshour actually.,.)
after that.,.,its time!!.,.at last were going to eat already.,.and guess what?,.,we had our breakfast at 12:00 pm.,.,and that would be brunch(breakfast-lunch)
my sister and her boyfriend(i think) sat beside each other.,.,
and they both look so cute.,.,.haha!!sweet isnt it (there are things that words along cant explain.,.haha!!)
(ouch my face is itchy.,.)
while eating..,the people around the table(were all 6.,.)started a conversation.,.(except me.,.im silent all meal round.,.,)
and guess what their topic is?,., its love.,.love life..,and anything under love,.,.wierd..,.,right?,,
well our brunch lasted for about an hour and 30 minutes.,,.loooong.,.,
and i was the one who washed the dishes,.,
11 plates,.
11 spoons and forks.,.
and 14 glasses,.,.
sigh,.,it took me 30 minutes to finish washing.,.
(ouch my face is really itchy by now,.,and its already turning red!!)
after washing,.,i started fixing the trash from last night's party,.,while fixing it.,something went inside my mind.,,.its "wow,.,im alone.,.,"
and that thought lasted untill i sat and watched TV.,.
after sometime.,.the boyfriend of my sister went out of our room and called ma if i would like to eat spaghetti.,,.,rejected the offer ofcourse.,.,were not yet that close,.,.
after that he again went inside the room,.after a few moments.,.my uncle went out for their earlt christmas party.,.then an hour again one of the boarders left for her work,..,and that leave me,my sister,and her 3 friends.,.,what a day.,.they were all in the room laughing,.,talking,..,while im in the living room watching TV all by myself.,.,
i felt empty after that thought.,.a cold feeling swept all over my body that i again felt like crying.,,.actually.,a few drops fell while i was lying.,.
then the room where my sister and her friends are suddenly kept quiet,.,simply because they are already preparing to go out,.,to take a jam that is.,.,
my sister went out the room and asked me "do you want to come?"
well for me,that the wrong question to ask.,.,she's supposed to say "hey why dont you come with us"
i dont know but i took the negative side of her question.,.
maybe because if ill go with them.,.ill be left alone,.,.my sister with her boyfriend,and my sister's friend and her boyfriend.,that leaves me,.,.with no companion.,at all.,.all by myself.,.,so i said no.,,
well.,.,after sometime,.,.they were already prepared and so they left.,.
after that.,i started mumbling things to myself.,.anything just to feel that im not alone.,.
then i remembered!!!.,.theres a leftover chocolate cake in the fridge.,.,and so i took it out and ate it,.,.2 slices all in all.,.,i feel so lonely and so empty that i was able to eat all thos slice.,.,then i drank 2 glasses of coke.,.,wow.,.,
after that i felt better.,.,.dunno but suddenly i felt happy.,fulfilled.,.haha!!!
then after a few minutes.,.,i started eating chocolate ice cream.,.,
]and it all made me feel better.,.,haha!!!chocolate's such a wonderful anti depressant.,.
after that i was so energized that i started playing with my sister's arnis sticks.,.,.wonderfull..,.,,.
LESSON:depressed??.,.,., EAT CHOCOLATE!!..,.lots of it.,.,
haha!!.,.,.,.
(lousy entry isnt it,.,.?)
(sigh.,.)
Currently watching: Detective Conan
Currently feeling: im happy.,.,dunno why.,.,